My name is Esther R. Scott, some call me “Essie” or “Rev Essie”. The “Rev” is really not needed. My experiences are very similar to (-)….very. I am beginning to think that maybe a few of us were ‘sent’ due to our experiences in life where we can encourage and uplift those who may have had the same experiences.
I was what I call the ‘unloved’ orphan that was raised in a few different homes and had people from those homes tell others “we absolutely hate Esther” and they still say it today. I’ve been sabotaged, lied on, cheated, talked about and mistreated like Vicki Winans says in her song. I struggle with sabotage everyday but with God’s Grace, I get Victory….a hard Victory but a Victory nonetheless. In order to be a winner you have to learn to be a loser if that makes sense. Some people are depressed and on drugs because they are a ‘loser’ to the World, not realizing that they are Winners in Christ Jesus. God says that you cannot be friends with the World and love Him at the same time. The World is at enmity with God. If the World hates you, it hated Jesus before you. There are actors and other entertainers still struggling in Hollywood, fighting against “the machine” trying to make the statement that they will not sell their souls for fame or fortune. I could have but I chose not to, therefore, I was what I called, a Semi-Entertainer. Canonsburg, Pa even put me in their Bicentennial Book as one of ‘their’ entertainers along with Perry Como and Bobby Vinton. That was awesome to even be in the same chapter as them and almost on the same page, for which I am thankful. I don’t sing much anymore. I can but I kinda got out of the circuit I guess. I liked it when singers sang and it wasn’t a competition like on T.V. We just sang and enjoyed it. We didn’t have to be better than anyone, we just sang and made people happy. I don’t like competition, it brings out the ugly in people.
Some of my background information includes Singer, Writer, Preacher, Teacher, Mother, Grandma, and Former Marine. (Honorable Discharge.) I still say that dominating one talent in life is better than being a “Jack of all Trades”. Being a JOAT spreads your mind a bit thin. Focus on one thing in life and do it with all your might. My condensed background caused me to reach out for love and acceptance in any way that I could get it. When you go through that you end up having swine that stomped all over your pearls telling people that “they knew you when” and half of their story is fabricated just enough to keep the so-called “good people” away. But if they are really “good people” they wouldn’t sit around listening to the gossip right? I was extremely introvert most of my life. My friends find it very odd that I became a preacher of the Word. You know it HAS to be God when I start talking. Lol.
Due to the many negatives in my life, I gained a lot of weight and became unhealthy including Type 2 Diabetes. I was diagnosed in 2003 with a sugar level of 300. I was approximately 250 pounds or more, my hair was breaking off and I just didn’t care anymore about my appearance. I have videos of my children’s birthdays that shock me every time I watch them. My appearance was screaming for attention yet I still wallowed in my misery….proudly. (Wallowed. Wow, what a choice of words there.) After beginning the Diabetes meds, I lost 50 pounds but became happy with that loss and didn’t strive for more. I lived that way for years saying, “I’m big and beautiful!” when actually I was big and out of shape, breathing like a 90-year old woman. Recently my daughter invited me to the track that she walks on. I’d walk around once, breathing heavily and then I’d sit on the park bench or picnic table and watch her go around. Wow. That was crazy now that I think about it. All of a sudden and with much prayer I tell you, I began to walk more than one lap with her! I was like…..”What?????” Lol. I actually began doing about 5-6 laps with Lex. About a week later, I did about 8-9 and now I am up to 12. Daily I do between 8-12 depending on how I feel that day. We figured out the size of the track which ends up as 4 laps per mile and it was on after that! 12 laps = 3 miles. I like to keep it between 2 ½ – 3 miles a day, that’s what we did in the Corp. I was in the Corp from 1981-1987. The difference is….we jogged not walked. Hey! I’m 55! Walking 12 laps for a 55 year old sista isn’t a bad thing. 🙂 I am contemplating on purchasing a Track Incliner, Stair Stepper, or whatever the name is, lol, so that I can continue during the winter months. It’s only $177 at Wal-Mart. It’s worth the investment! (Now folks know that they aren’t going to walk around a freezing cold, icy track. Let’s get real right?)
I hope that what I wrote is okay. There has to be a million “I’s” in this writing but that’s what we are supposed to do, introduce ourselves. I refused to speak about myself in the 3rd person, that would be wierd huh? Lol.
God bless and thank you for reading.
Essie thanks God for this opportunity and she prays God’s protection and provision around us all. 🙂